False Hope!

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I don’t know who I am much beyond the scars of the past

Scars that define, demean, and describe my life wholly

Bickering burden of constant criticism soaked my benign soul  

Sewn into my bloodstream were false hopes of love and care

 

I yearned for validation from not the beyond but the within

The mirror reflected nothing but void when I looked

Everything hanging by a flimsy thread of false hope

Stringing my life together with a sense of nothingness

 

I have no sense of being and neither some meaning

A passing cloud in the eyes of the world that matters

I have no choice, say or a sense of belongingness

All I have is a sense of false hope leading me into darkness

 

My thoughts slowly drowned me from within

I did not struggle nor fight to claw my way up

Instead, I let myself drown as I had nothing to live for

  I had nothing but false hopes and false hopes indeed

 

I leave behind no legacy nor the past to hold for comfort

I leave behind nothing but pain and sorrow for all

The memories and hopes drifting away slowly

I am the false hope that I despised so much

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